I woke up with tears rolling down again.
Missing dar so much.
I went to the computer and saw dar msned me 6:52a.m.
Dar wished me good luck.

Good sign?
Maybe.
Or maybe im just thinking too much.

I went to shower. Forgot to turn on the hot water button. So i just showered in cold water.
As the water drips on me, memories of dar came out.
I remembered that time, when i shower in dar house, dar got told me before that the water will be really cold and dar even wanted to boil hot water for me to shower.
Dar is really sweet. But i didnt want dar to be troubling to boil it for me. I love you.
See people.. i told you he is not a bad guy ok. He even donated money to people.

When i showered cold water in dar house, dar would hug me. So i would be warm.
Today. when i showered cold water, i stayed cold. No more warm hugs.
I read back my sms. As i read them, more tears started to fall.
After that day.
I never deleted a single message he sent me.
Even hurting ones.
Because he is still my dar anyway.
Total message i kept from him is : 139

I know that number will never decrease as i wont delete any of them.
But i dont know if that number will increase.

Haix.
I am glad that dar told me that last night he didnt reply me is because he slept.

Time is ticking and my heart is beating really fast.
Why does bad things have to happen to me?
Maybe that is the plan of my life.

But no matter what ill still be waiting dar to come back to me.

Just now i had to take something from the bag i brought to dar de house.
My dar ached more as i was searching for this.
I gave up on searching the thing.
Put back the bag.
Ill be wearing the necklace everyday in Taiwan.
I will wait you o.
MUACK dar.
I wish you can say I love you to me right now.
When you love him - truly love him,
how are you supposed to get over him?
I've tried everything possible ...
but I just can't. Isn't that what true love is?